indeed i'm mad for you

There's a breeze,
a breeze as strong as a night time's wave,
a breeze as soft as a baby's bottom,
The sun peeks it's eyes through the gathered trees as I lay on the forest floor,
Color,
so much color,
making every blink linger with the vividness of a rainbow,
after a long day of clouds crying over the beauty below,
so bright yet the sun is a shadow compared to the shade above me.


Sunlight that falls down,
dripping from your bare skin,
nude sand warm between our toes,
saying isn't speaking if you aren't breathing he says.


My mind thinks when it ponders,
it sees you at night,
when the lights not bright,
when i cannot see,
it must not be,
somewhere small,
I see you tall,
I want you in my arms tonight,
it hurts, so bare,
yet full of flavor when the thought of you sparks to my mind,
I set you on fire, that flower's burning,
it's petals flowing down my river,
oh how it makes me shiver,
when I think of you.

IDFK

No Name

Nothing's worth it,
taming my lion,
I sit and think about life, contemplating the murder of my mind,
the suicide of dreams,
no ambition to share,
It's all for me,
I take what I want, not what's given
diving into an atoll of colors,
will you be my beacon,
slapping shame in the face,
then giving it a sloppy kiss goodbye,
I like to lie, when it hurts your ego,
I love to roar when my timing turns to taming those dark lonely nights.



Quasar

Flying stars dripping from my wrists,
numbness trickling down to my fingertips,
I've never found peace before,
and I won't,
until the night shades in the darkest places of my heart,
then when it breaks is when I cry,
these sparkling stars say goodbye,
to the bad, the ugly, and the brave,
yes these three things I do crave,
sounding like a witch, I rhyme,
casting my fishing line into a well of spells,
only then do I admit that the stars are my tears
and boy do they have a story to tell.



No Name

The shade is where her inner-child laid while everyone watched,
they admired her beauty from a distance,
making statements as though she never existed,
they left her alone,
believing that the slightest touch would crumble her tower,
Then the language was born,
words started to form,
a small crease let out a whisper,
the faintest of them all turned to the fairest,
and truth became her language, no one liked it at all,
so they snatched her from the dark, letting her prune in the sunniest of days,
these creases called lips parted and did say,
nothing,
as no one could recall,
noise noise noise a ferocious one too,
loosing her mind as everyone watched in silence,
they're oblivion to the quite obvious was, and will be, all they have left of her.

Fuck, I Hate You

I don't know any more... why do I even try with him. I know that he lies, but he's just so damn cute. Why? Why do I always seek the emotionally unavailable?... I continuously trap myself in this lonesome cubical called my mind... stuck under these bricks called feelings. I'm lost, that's definitely a fact but there's no one willing to come and find me, or at least I think there isn't... suddenly I feel stupid, or less than inadequate... worth less than being worthless... and I know you don't care, oh how I want you to care... to actually see that I'm a diamond in this coal stricken world... I've changed for the better, but feel as though I haven't changed enough... Why do I have to change myself for you?... I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT! I'm me and that's all I can be... stop marking me something I'm not... forgive me... though you don't even no what for... I might seem open about my past ,but baby you don't know the half of it. I'm just lonely--everyone's lonely though--I want someone to hold me at night and express their love towards me in ways I can't even do for myself?? What is that called? Intimacy, lust, or is it actually love? I have no idea... but that's nothing new.

I find it really hard to think

My mind races.

Way to fast

And no I don't really care

But yes indeed I actually do

Why do I question myself so very often?